A Rambling Post Today Me Thinks…
I read a beautiful quote this morning by one of my favourite writers:
"Throw your dreams into space like a kite, and you do not know what it will bring back, a new life, a new friend, a new love, a new country." Anais Nin
Ah how it made me smile and feel warm inside. A friend said to me just the other day that: (as corny as it sounds) “you've turned dreams into reality; when it's all too easy just to sit and dream!” I thought ‘have I?’ but then I guess I have. Only in so much as doing whatever my heart tells me to, without question – mostly. And that’s what dreams are, aren’t they? I mean, we feel things in our hearts, we visualise them in our minds and then – mostly – we tuck them away in a quiet corner and forget about them. But I’ve never been the kinda girl to tuck things away figuring that when you follow your heart it can be the only true way to live this life. But then maybe I’m just a hopeless romantic.
The thing is, following my heart has landed me in hot water on many occasions. Oh it’s always given me interesting twists and turns in my life, but maybe I have not always walked the easiest trails. Not that I’m complaining, because I love an interesting life. But there have been times when I have laid on a bed in a darkened room, thrown my dreams up into the air along with my tears and wondered why nothing has come back…
Life has a greater plan, I’m sure. Because even in moments of utter despair as to whether I am doing the right thing; maybe a week, maybe a month, maybe a year after some major happening in my life, I sit there under a tree, watching the water of a nearby lake ripple and I think to myself “so that’s why that happened.” Believing in the dream that if you stay true to yourself, somewhere along the line things will come good is the only way I can live.
And so, at this time in my life, I sometimes feel a little lost. I wonder ‘but what is my dream now? what am I striving for?’ This morning it all became clear. My daughter took the laundry bag, walked it to the kitchen, put all the clothes in the washer, helped pour the powder in, turned the dial to number 4 and pressed the on button. I thought – I may not be perfect, I may sometimes spend too much time working at the computer when I should be sticking leaves on paper with her, but I get to teach her everyday tasks that I’m sure will one day seem boring to her, but to me are still shared moments.
Right now my dream is for us as a family to maintain our life together, to work our little businesses and yet continue to make time together a priority. Money may not grow on our tree – or anywhere else for that matter! But our fulfillment from work and family on our own terms is our priority and of course, being able to take time out to travel (Scandinavia ‘hopefully’ here we come next spring/summer <*throw them dreams into space like a kite*>). So, that’s my dream right now and I’m not sure where it’s going to end up, but I’m following my heart and enjoying what’s coming back from space.
I suppose I don't often ask questions to my readers... maybe I should more often? But truly, i would love to know what dreams you are pursuing at the moment. Do share!
Oh and I've written a little post here about all about the people we meet...
